Why are you doing this? Let it go!

That's the thing I'm trying to convince myself every single day, to let it go, all the pain, frustrations, disappointments, all the comments and stuff people tell me and try to cheep chat it to other people, just to hurt me.

Lately I got hate on daily bases because of the boy that I date, I think it's just so lame, to hate on people who did nothing to you, to hate the person you don't even really know.

It hurts me really bad because behind this though look and personality that I try to have, is hiding this fragile girl. 

You know that if you hurt me, it hurts him too. Because we care and we would do everything just to be happy.

It hurts when people tell you the stuff like the other day someone wrote me something like that: "You should die, just like your mom did!" 

It hurts because I miss my mom so bad, because I need her, because I know I will never see her again. Sometimes I just think that this is not really happening and it's just an illusion. 

It hurts to just think that people really wish that bad things would happen to you. 

Hey, we live in a world, where our imperfect generation expect people to be absolutely perfect! Why? I have flaws, you have flaws, everybody has them! 

Why do you have to pick up your nose in every single stuff that people say or do? You have your own life right? 

Sometimes it's just to much for me. I break down, I'm human, I'm not a rock, I can ignore things to some point, but then I break down. And I go through a lot of struggles before I can stand up again.

But that's the meaning of life, to always  get back up, to be happy, to love, to explore, to discover things you never thought about in the back of your mind.

It doesn't matter if you are rich or pore, if you're big or small, the thing that matters is that you have a good heart! That you are positive! That you love!

I know that people are capable to have so many faces, to copy each other because jealousy kicks in, but are you capable to be yourself? 

When you will be able to feel good in your skin the other people will see it. You won't need to pick your nose in to other business because your happiness will be the only thing that really matters. 

Just live your life and stop ruining it for others. You only live once, make it count!

"You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself any direction you choose. You're on your own. And you know what you know. And YOU are the one who'll decide where to go..."

- Dr. Seuss

I woke up in the middle of the night and I just had to write this down, now I can go back to bed with clear mind.

Xoxo,

- J

Milano Trip - 5 Seconds of Summer - Take No.2

Okey so where should I start.

On 4th June I packed my bags and took a bus to Kranj.

I meet Eva and the rest of the team there, we went to get some food and end up buying water guns. Hehehe yeah we rulzzzzzz. After that we went to Burger King, me and Anja got his little Spongebob ball ipp. Anyway after that we went to get the van. We didn't get our baby that black one, which was pretty awesome, but still we got the van. We went back to pick some more girls and went to Eva's place.

We ate, watched some awesome Viners and around 11pm we went to sleep.

We woke up around 1.30 am and got ready. Soooo let's get this show on the road!

We picked up our girl Barbara in Izola and really went on the road. We sang, we didn't sleep much, but we had fun, we were just so excited. On our second stop we went to get changed, like in short pants because it was so damn hot! We ate, played a guitar, sang and just got ready for the crazy madness that was comming.

The road to the first Radio Deejay station was crazy. Like there was just this big amount of the cars and the traffic was just awful. We didn't park the car near the station. We parked just in random parking lot, got maps out and just asked this lovely man at one of the hotels to give us a directions. And he really did, so we took the map and just walkeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed.

We were a little confused if we're gonna get in the right place, but when we started to see the other fans we knew we are in the right place. We filled our water guns with water and just waited. We saw the boys comming with the van and just run. So they went inside the Radio and we went to the front.

There were so many people! But I saw Calum and Luke first. They were just so pretty.

The thing was like there was no one around me and I started to wave with my phone case and just smile and Luke pointed at me and Calum looked in my way and I was like holly shit what did just happened?

 So the interview went on and we just went at the back again. We prepared our water guns and flags. When they came out we just started to splash the car and just run after them. When the cars stopped in the trafic Eva who wore that Pikachu onesie, ran to the car and just waved and smiled.

It wasn't long since the boys went to the next station. We just followed the other fans and that's when Živa started to freak out. And we were like what the fuck, she just couldn't got the words out. That's when I got the text to!

Freaking Luke Hemmings tweeted about us. The pikachu and water guns. 

So we just hugged and started to smile and yeahh we run to the tram and all the girls were packed inside. It was madness. That's when it started. Everyone wanted to take a selfie with us.

Anyway we arrived at second station Radio 105 and the we saw the boys again. They were just awww, Luke and Calum waved at us and well, we were splashing the window with water again and Calum gave us thumbs up. And when they came to the window again, just pure perfection standing there.

Next thing I knew we had to get the van. We didn't quite know how to get back but we took the underground and just hoped we got to the right place. When we got out from the underground we didn't find the parking lot. XD... The best part was we made like 3 circles around the parking lot and we didn't saw them. Hahahhahaha. Next thing I knew we were on the road and gps started to act silly. And yeah then we turned the radio RTL 102.5 on and the boys came on. We arived to the station and just drove around. We parked at the back of the station and just walk around, listened to radio, and we saw Ashton again. He went back inside and we knew we would have to follow them to the The Voice avenue.

We waited at the back of the radio for them to come out. But they were smart, their vans went in the opposite direction, we tried to follow them but just couldn't see the vans. 

Next thing I knew we were typing the adress of The Voice avenue inside and just hoped we would get to the right place. 

Then it happened like in movies. I got butterflies if I only remember the scene. 

We arrived to the very back entrance with the van when we first saw Luke outside, then the other boys came. 

We jumped out of the van but Luke went back inside. So we just waited at the fence. It was crazy! 

First I've got selfie with Calum and I can honestly say he's sooooo kind and sweet. And he said "I love ya" with this amazing accent. Just aghhhh. 

Next one that came was Michael. 

Dayummmmm. I just don't know how to describe this. He's like the best person ever. We took the picture and he was looking at me, slowly moving forward and I just said "wait" and gave him the letter that I wrote. He was like "is this for me?", he smiled big and I was like "yeah" he grab the letter tight and said "I will read it" I just didn't know what to say and just blurred out "Pinky promise?" And he said "promise" smiled and went forward. 

We gave Calum this big brochure about Slovenia and he happily took it. 

I was watching the rest of the girls taking pictures with Calum, Michael and Ashton.  I saw Ash comming back and I started to wave at him so he could come to our side and take pictures but he just waved back, smiled and went inside. 

After that all slowly had to go inside the venue. 

I still couldn't believe what happened. 

I was in shock. So happy.

Next thing I knew I was sitting there crying and hugging my mom's necklase. All the memories rushed back. I remembered the first time she showed me their video, the time when she told me that she bought the tickets for "Where We Are" One Direction Tour. The times when she always said "I believe in you, you're gonna make your dreams come true!", and just stuff like that. It hit me bad but those were just those happy,grateful tears.

After that we just waited, we saw them go in and out of the avenue with the van for like 2 times. I meet soooooo many girls and I'm just proud to call them my #5sosfam.

 When they came back for the show I saw, Ashton and Michael again, I can say the looked just perfect. Then the waved and went inside. 

One of the staff later came out and said that we are good girls and quiet and just normal and that there is still a little chance that after the show they will stop to say hii again. But it was the word of theirs manager that would count. 

We waited until like 11pm for them, but they only jumped in the van and took of.

Honestly, I totally understand them, they travel around like crazy, they are tired, they can't get sick because of the shows that are comming and yeahh.

Then we just got in the van and went back to Slovenia.

I gotta say that this was the best day of my life. I've never been so happy before. Thanks to our gang I meet them and I will be forever grateful for that. I'm still speechless and happy and just ahhhhhhhh. 

They changed my life, they helped me to get back up and I'm never gonna forget the feeling that I got when I see them, when I hear them, when I just remember them.

And here is little video about the trip. :D

Xoxo, 

-J 

Milano Trip - 5 Seconds of Summer - Take No.1

So yahh, I've been writing this for almost two months now, and I'm gonna finish it today so let's get this show on the road. 

So I've been liking 5 Seconds Of Summer for like a year now, well since the one and only Louis Tomlinson tweeted about them and my mom showed me one of their covers of One Direction - What Makes You Beautiful.

So me and Eva talked about them like a lot and they we're in the UK just going around doing this little tour and stuff. 

So one day the posted about 5 Countries 5 Days Acoustic Shows.

And bum, me and Eva got the idea why not going to Italy aka Milan to see them?

We booked for tickets, but were little bit unlucky, so we just rented a van and got the plan going. 

On the 2nd of April I went to Škofja Loka to meet up with Eva and Anja.

All we knew was that they we're going to be in the Milan playing in the Magazzi Genrerali and that they are gonna stay in one of the hotels around the Hotel Principe di Savoia.

So we took the iPad out and searched the ways in the center of Milan. We wrote down the adress of the hotel. The way from hotel to the avenue where they were playing, did some print screen of maps and printed them. We went to sleep around 11 pm and woke up around 2.30 am.

We went on the road at 3am, picked up other girls and just went on the road. 

 

We came in Milan at around 11am, our GPS went mental crazy, thanks god to the map and me, hehe, we found the hotel pretty quick and pap even showed us the pictures of them arriving to the hotel. We missed them for like a minute or two when we were just parking the van across the street. Like whaaat? Heheh ups.

After that we just looked around, had fun with girls, got so annoyed by Italian fans, well not all of them, but the main amount of them only knew the beginning and the chorus of the "She looks so perfect" song, it got really annoying because all you could hear was, " heey, heeey, heeey, ....You look so perfect standing there in my American Apparel underwear and I know now, that I'm so down...."

After waiting in front of the hotel, this really good italian fan gave us the underground and tram directions to the avenue. 

We were little late, we were running around to get the tickets, and the right train and in the end we just followed some fans that we saw on the way there. 

It was just so exciting, there was just so many laughs and you can see from the pictures we were a little bit tired but no one could stop us. When we arrived to the avenue we just looked around. Dumb us Liz (Luke's mom) was standing next to us and we didn't notice her, dumb, dumb, dumb. 

While we were waiting for boys to come to the avenue we took Slovenian flag out and just walked around. People were taking pictures, talked to us, why we got here, how long was the ride and stuff like that.

So we heard that they are having soundcheck, so me, Eva and Živa went around the avenue, climbed a tree and saw the staff hanging at the back. We also saw this big fence surrounded with the bamboo, we decided to  go there, climb up and just watch. 

All I can say is that we didn't think, we just wanted to see them. And we did! They came out after the soundcheck and just talked to us, and hang around. 

The best part was probably all the guys talking to us and we just smiled and talked back. 

The show was about to start so they went back inside, the best thing was we heard it all. From the beginning to the end. Just amazing. 

After the show, they greeted us again and just smiled at us.

So Eva and Živa made a plan, they jumped of the fence, took the letters and drawings and ran pass the guards to their manager and gave them the stuff. So this part was just briliant.

Then we slowly went back to the hotel, we went to the van, ate, and just went to the front of the hotel. 

So that is when the reall show started. We went to the front and just looked inside. We saw them again multiple times, standing only like 2 or 3 m away from us. We were happy we could watch them and wave at them and they waved back.

The best part was Calum and Ashton drunk, in the lobby, just talking weird stuff.

Michael was looking through the window, and well he couldn't sleep.

And my personal favorite, we were busking in front of the hotel and Luke opened his window and waved at us, said hii, send kisses and just yelled couple of things, and he did that twice!

We camped in front of the hotel and just waited the morning, forgot to mention Anja almost crashed her head, they joked around and she fell, and well thanks to Hotel Staff we got the ice.

It was around 2am when me and Anja went to the van to get some sleep, the rest of them stayed at the hotel. 

We woke up at 5.30am and when we got there they just left to the airport, well the girls that stayed at hotel meet them all, they said that Calum and Ash had this big hangover.

That they are soooooo sweet and just the best thing. I was not sad at all, because I saw them like 3 times and not all have the chance to even see them like I did.

The best of all, I've got new friends and the best experience ever.

And on the way back we got lost in Trieste, hahaha, thanks to me again I showed the way 

out. Later we went on the ice cream and slowly headed home.

So that's all.

- Love J

Terme Olimia !

So I'm gonna try to write everything we did in 1 week in the spa... Soooo let's go! 

Day 1 - 3.1 - Thursday

We got in Olimia around 1pm. The 2 and half hour drive was pretty exhausting.

5 people in one car fully loaded with bags, food and other living stuff driving to thermal wellness/spa Olimia was like hmm exciting for finally having some relaxation and took things of our minds. We just couldn't wait to get there. "Are we there yet?" was the question that everyone was asking themselves in last half an hour drive.

The apartment in the hotel was just so beautiful.

We unpacked our bags prepared lunch and went to pool.

When we got back we had dinner played some games and went to sleep.

Day 2 - 4.1 - Friday

Well we woke up around 9am had breakfast and went to Jelenov greben to see reindeers, later we went to Witches world but it was closed(we saw it anyway, snook in).. After lunch they went to pool, I stayed with my cousin Klemen in the apartment. We snook out to Spa Armonia and booked Chocolate massage for cousin mom because she brought us here, we wanted to give her a little gift so that was just the perfect idea.

Well when we gave the coupon to her she was so shocked and happy that she started to cry.

And that was kinda the end of the day.

Day 3 - 5.1 - Sunday

We woke up like the other day around 9 am and went to Jelenov greben again. After that we went to see the old pharmacy and chocolatier here in Olimie. It was awesomeee.

After lunch the rest of the family went to pool and I went to face vitality treatment in Wellness center spa Armonia. 

It was just great. So relaxing. 

Day 4 - 6.1 - Monday

We slept a little bit longer and just played games until lunch. After that our aunt went to Chocolate message we bought to her.

We just went swimming for the rest of the day.

Day 5 - 7.1 - Tuesday

In the morning we went to Rogatec and just explored the town.

After lunch we went to pool and just had fun until like 9 pm.

Day 6 - 8.1 - Wednesday

We woke up around 8 am and just lied in bed for another 2 hours. After breakfast my cousin, his girlfriend and his mom went to castle.

Me, my sister and other cousin Klemen, we cleaned a little, packed some stuff for tomorrow and learned some things.

After lunch we went to pool until 8pm after that we just fell asleep.

Day 7 - 9.1 - Thursday

We woke up around 8am, packed bags, cleaned apartment and checked out of the hotel.

We  drived to the restaurant Grof and ate this big lunch.

After that we met my dad in Ljubljana and drove home.

Well that is pretty much all!

Love,

- J